I'm so sad, I could cry.

I just completed conferences, I have a bad illness, I will miss my students so much it hurts. I really can't think of it right now. I'm just going to cry, lay low, slowly turn 30 and miss some 9 and 10 year olds so much. I know this is a lesson in letting go, changing, accepting impermanence. But you know what? It effing sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!