Saturday, December 29, 2007
I want to be fit and healthy again.
I want to travel and visit friends who are far from me.
I want to make fabulous artistic creations.
I want to live passionately and completely.
I want to teach and feel purposeful.
I want to be so happy the joy drips from my ears and glows all around me.
I want to save money, move out and feel like an adult again (or maybe even for the first time).
I want to share laughter, stories, and ideas with my remarkable friends.
I want to taste some excellent red wine.
I want to learn and then learn some more.
I want to never look back.
Friday, December 21, 2007
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Should you find yourself in my company during one of these horrible battles of the immune system, it is best to move carefully. Bring a magazine and tissue, pop in "The Dancing Princesses" from the Faerie Tale Theater collection and exit with your back to the door. Trust me, it's just safer.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Monday, December 3, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
For crisp clean autumn air.
For falling leaves.
For terrific pals and a loving family.
For clam chowder, jersey sheets, and tea.
For second chances and growing.
For laughing, crying, and feeling everything.
For my hands, health, and hair.
For this day and every day after.
For my amazing life.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Friday, November 16, 2007
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Monday, November 12, 2007
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Friday, November 9, 2007
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Rob Brezsny's Free Will Astrology.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
How can I learn to understand them?
I struggle since as a substitute I must come in everyday completely new and without knowing the students well. I have to make split second decisions, take first impressions as all I know, and sometimes, well probably more often than not, mess up. I think it is crazy. I mean here I am a total stranger with sometimes only some notes from a teacher deciding how a child's day will go. They have to adjust to me and I have to adjust to them. I find my patience is tested a lot and I never realized that I can be so critical. I'm trying to understand how to be a better substitute teacher. One that is respected and listened to but also one that does not judge. I supposed it is difficult to do. Since as a sub, I am forever trying to gain control. I never get a chance to develop a real relationship with the students. And I am forever feeling empty. Always beginning and always ending. Constantly in flux...Maybe I understand Buddhism better than I thought!
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
And I wish I didn't feel so much, reveal so much, understood impermanence, and was not so ruled by my emotions.
I don't usually complain but these are things making me feel awful today:
overdue student loans
health insurance ending soon
no money--maybe 13 dollars, right now.
missing friends or not hearing from people
feeling fat and receiving my driver's license in the mail with a picture that makes me look like a puffy chipmunk
getting lost for an hour while trying to drop off my brother
feeling like I'm a professional babysitter not a teacher
feeling like I'll never move out again
stupid stuff from the past
letting all these things bother me and not quite knowing how to fix them or feel better
ten days to my birthday and feeling very low
complaining about trivial things while "real issues" are all around us in the world
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Friday, October 5, 2007
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Friday, September 28, 2007
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Thursday, September 6, 2007
This is why I love Tacoma. You can find beauty, art, nature and just plain uniqueness anywhere. I took these pictures with my new digital camera outside my friend Emily's apartment building. There is a busy street right in front of it that I drive down all the time and I have never noticed these things before. I find myself looking at the world very differently now that my camera has become my third hand. I know it sounds cliche but when you stop for a second and look around, you see amazing things. I have flown down that road (well okay, five over the speed limit but who's counting?) and now I hope that I don't get into an accident by moving my head around to find curious things on this street. I'm going to continue looking and maybe even move my blog more in that direction. Finding strange things and photographing it and posting it. Who knows...